Hello :)
I feel like writing another blog text, because i am in a very critical point in my life again and it is fun to write it down.
It is a mix of egoism, therapy and at the same time a diary that keeps my mind in text so i can read it later and look back.
The critical point i have reached is where i have to find out about everything again.
It was about 12-14 month since i first left sweden to try to go around the world.
I was very cornered at this point because i havd a job i had to do and i had walls locking me in from adventures.
My mind exploded at the end and i went dumbnut impulsiv, wish is good!
I love that part about myself, but i am trying to learn how to control myself and see what i can do it under semi controlled circumstances.
During this summer i have been thinking, turning on every argument of everything, thinking of my options and mostly, i have been thinking of who i am and what i am.
This is a very annoying part that i cant controll.
The meening of being someone, to have an identity, to have a place in life.
My brain wants it, it wants to know who i am and where i belong, but it is nothing i realy care about like that.
It is just there, constatly looking for something to grasp onto.
And i will find an indentity in time but i wish my brain could slow down and dont want to rush about it.
It is very fun to be aware of the mind, how it works, why it does stuffs and how it thinks and even tricks you to belive stuff etc.
Aftar analyzing people
WILL STOP HERE FOR 30 MIN, will write mush more